I was surprised this morning to find that my "monthly friend" is here for a visit. That explains the migraine I had last night! It also explains my body's resistance to dropping the pounds. At least I haven't gained any like I normally would at this time of the month. It also explains why, aside from being hungry, I've been having such intense food cravings.
Praising God for helping through those cravings! If I can manage to get through those without breaking down then I can get through the ones I get on a normal non-fasting month.
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 164
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Friday, February 3, 2012
Day 12
Ever have one of those weeks that just gets away from you? Well, I've had one of those. My sweet friend and neighbor had eye surgery on Wednesday. I had promised to go over to put her drops in her eyes and make sure she was comfortably resting when she got home. I ended up spending pretty much the whole day watching for the medical transport to drop her off. It turned out that her surgery was delayed due to problems with the laser.
Yesterday morning I went to spend some time visiting with her. When I got home I remembered that my son had a doctor's appointment that afternoon. Hubby and I had to do a car swap, (he runs home, picks me up, I drive him to work and drop him back off), then I needed to shower and get ready to be in 'public'. By the time we got home from the doctor's, picking daddy up from work, going to the grocery store to get dinner, and back home again the day was pretty much shot.
I did drive my neighbor over to see her elderly mother and drop off a prescription for her at the assisted living facility where she lives. It was nice to see her mother again. I told her that I'm going to have to come see her every day because she kept telling me how good I'm looking. LOL
You'd think as busy as I've been that I wouldn't have much time to think about being hungry. I wish that were true! Wednesday night I was reading "Brisinger" to keep my mind occupied and read, "Orik fell silent as a portly dwarf waddled up and deposited a plate of steaming food in front of him." Suddenly, I was having visions of sausage gravy smothering biscuits and hash browns and scrambled eggs. That's SO not fair!!! I spent the rest of the night craving that meal.
In all this busyness I need to give thought to contacting our homeschool tester/evaluator. If I wait too long then before I know it June and July will be upon me. Not only that, but those testing slots tend to fill up quickly.
Homeschool standardized tests are not a requirement in our state. We do, however, have to have our kids evaluated once a year by either a certified teacher or a psychologist. This can be done by either testing or a review of the child's portfolio.
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 164
Yesterday morning I went to spend some time visiting with her. When I got home I remembered that my son had a doctor's appointment that afternoon. Hubby and I had to do a car swap, (he runs home, picks me up, I drive him to work and drop him back off), then I needed to shower and get ready to be in 'public'. By the time we got home from the doctor's, picking daddy up from work, going to the grocery store to get dinner, and back home again the day was pretty much shot.
I did drive my neighbor over to see her elderly mother and drop off a prescription for her at the assisted living facility where she lives. It was nice to see her mother again. I told her that I'm going to have to come see her every day because she kept telling me how good I'm looking. LOL
You'd think as busy as I've been that I wouldn't have much time to think about being hungry. I wish that were true! Wednesday night I was reading "Brisinger" to keep my mind occupied and read, "Orik fell silent as a portly dwarf waddled up and deposited a plate of steaming food in front of him." Suddenly, I was having visions of sausage gravy smothering biscuits and hash browns and scrambled eggs. That's SO not fair!!! I spent the rest of the night craving that meal.
In all this busyness I need to give thought to contacting our homeschool tester/evaluator. If I wait too long then before I know it June and July will be upon me. Not only that, but those testing slots tend to fill up quickly.
Homeschool standardized tests are not a requirement in our state. We do, however, have to have our kids evaluated once a year by either a certified teacher or a psychologist. This can be done by either testing or a review of the child's portfolio.
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 164
Tuesday, January 31, 2012
Day 9
I weighted myself this morning and was disappointed to have not lost anything since yesterday. Normally I weigh only once a week to avoid these disappointments. However, since I'm on this fast it's important to keep a closer watch on my weight.
Yes, this fast is mostly about turning my will over to Jesus, but it's also about loosing weight. I guess right now I'm really struggling with having the proper motivation for this. I also have to remember that it's not healthy to loose too much weight too fast. Slow and steady wins the race as they say.
I keep finding myself saying things like, "I WILL loose this weight!" Even though I've told the Lord that if He prefers to keep me at this weight, that will be ok with me. Arrrgh! Is NO part of this ever easy??
It's just so easy to get caught up in seeing those pounds drop and wanting to see it happen faster. LORD, please help me to keep my focus on YOU!
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 165
Yes, this fast is mostly about turning my will over to Jesus, but it's also about loosing weight. I guess right now I'm really struggling with having the proper motivation for this. I also have to remember that it's not healthy to loose too much weight too fast. Slow and steady wins the race as they say.
I keep finding myself saying things like, "I WILL loose this weight!" Even though I've told the Lord that if He prefers to keep me at this weight, that will be ok with me. Arrrgh! Is NO part of this ever easy??
It's just so easy to get caught up in seeing those pounds drop and wanting to see it happen faster. LORD, please help me to keep my focus on YOU!
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 165
Monday, January 30, 2012
Day 8
I feel like I'm learning so much! God is growing me in ways that I may not even recognize right away. Since yesterday I've been pondering the question, "Am I obeying God for the blessings, or am I obeying Him BECAUSE I'm blessed??" I find that it can be a hard line to distinguish and a very easy one to cross over without ever realizing it.
In my lesson this morning I learned about being "poor in spirit". Basically acknowledging that I have NOTHING to offer to God and without Him I am NOTHING.
Yesterday, after church, MyHero decided to take us all to the mall since there were a couple of things he needed to get. My kids were NOT thrilled and kept complaining that they just wanted to go home. I told them numerous times that they needed to "deny themselves".
"Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me." Luke 9:23
As I read my lesson this morning and pondered what it means to be "poor in spirit" I thought, "If you are emptied of yourself, then it would be much easier to deny yourself!" As I was typing this out another thought came to me! "As you deny yourself, it is easier to become emptied of yourself!" I think it's going to take some time to wrap my head around all that this implies!
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 165
In my lesson this morning I learned about being "poor in spirit". Basically acknowledging that I have NOTHING to offer to God and without Him I am NOTHING.
Yesterday, after church, MyHero decided to take us all to the mall since there were a couple of things he needed to get. My kids were NOT thrilled and kept complaining that they just wanted to go home. I told them numerous times that they needed to "deny themselves".
"Then he said to them all: “Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me." Luke 9:23
As I read my lesson this morning and pondered what it means to be "poor in spirit" I thought, "If you are emptied of yourself, then it would be much easier to deny yourself!" As I was typing this out another thought came to me! "As you deny yourself, it is easier to become emptied of yourself!" I think it's going to take some time to wrap my head around all that this implies!
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 165
Saturday, January 28, 2012
Day 6
My big news today, I think I've been released to crochet again! My arm is feeling much better. It only pains me once in a while now. Also, I'm much more aware of my motivation for crochet. I think my first project, before I go back to the afghan I was working on will be something for my daughter's birthday.
She wants me to make a crochet cat for her, so I'd like to do that. But I also want to make her some crocheted rollers for her hair. She's been using small towels and wash cloths from our linens to attempt to curl her long, very thick hair. I've found some really cool patterns for crocheted curlers and think this would be much easier for her. Not to mention looking much less silly! Also, I can stuff these with cotton wool so that they will absorb the moisture from her hair better. Because her hair is so thick it takes FOREVER to dry!
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 166
She wants me to make a crochet cat for her, so I'd like to do that. But I also want to make her some crocheted rollers for her hair. She's been using small towels and wash cloths from our linens to attempt to curl her long, very thick hair. I've found some really cool patterns for crocheted curlers and think this would be much easier for her. Not to mention looking much less silly! Also, I can stuff these with cotton wool so that they will absorb the moisture from her hair better. Because her hair is so thick it takes FOREVER to dry!
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 166
Friday, January 27, 2012
Food is Not the Problem-Day 5
Bet you can guess what my lesson was about today. Food is not the reason that I'm overweight. I'm overweight because I like to over indulge! That and I don't like to exercise. Basically, I lack self-control in those areas. I'm allowing my Lord to teach me self-control.
The passage that grabbed me from today's study in "The Lord's Table" is, "The Christian life is not about legalistically following a set of rules, conforming to a man-made religion, or denying ourselves certain kinds of foods. It is about being full of Christ and enjoying Him."
"Since you died with Christ to the basic principles of this world, why, as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: 'Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!'? These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence." Colossians 2:20-23
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 167
The passage that grabbed me from today's study in "The Lord's Table" is, "The Christian life is not about legalistically following a set of rules, conforming to a man-made religion, or denying ourselves certain kinds of foods. It is about being full of Christ and enjoying Him."
"Since you died with Christ to the basic principles of this world, why, as though you still belonged to it, do you submit to its rules: 'Do not handle! Do not taste! Do not touch!'? These are all destined to perish with use, because they are based on human commands and teachings. Such regulations indeed have an appearance of wisdom, with their self-imposed worship, their false humility and their harsh treatment of the body, but they lack any value in restraining sensual indulgence." Colossians 2:20-23
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 167
Thursday, January 26, 2012
Focusing on Others, Day 4
In my reading today, I was learning what fasting should look like Biblically. Isaiah 58 is all about God's views on fasting. Verse 10 says, "And if you spend yourselves in behalf of the hungry and satisfy the needs of the oppressed, then your light will rise in the darkness, and your night will become like the noonday."
I've been avoiding the kitchen and cooking. My kids have been more than happy to step up and do the cooking not so much the clean up. Now I'm starting to think, perhaps I should go back to doing the cooking and stop avoiding the clean up as well.
There are also verses that talk about keeping your fast secret. I'm struggling with those. Not sure how you would keep a 20 day fast secret. My purpose in writing about it here is more for my own benefit than for anyone else. Writing helps me to process what I'm learning. Also having this here adds accountability to my fast.
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 168
I've been avoiding the kitchen and cooking. My kids have been more than happy to step up and do the cooking not so much the clean up. Now I'm starting to think, perhaps I should go back to doing the cooking and stop avoiding the clean up as well.
There are also verses that talk about keeping your fast secret. I'm struggling with those. Not sure how you would keep a 20 day fast secret. My purpose in writing about it here is more for my own benefit than for anyone else. Writing helps me to process what I'm learning. Also having this here adds accountability to my fast.
Starting Weight: 173
Current Weight: 168
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