Sunday, December 1, 2013

I have not wanted to post to this because we have had such a tough time staying consistent to doing school the last couple of months. I prefer for my posts to be uplifting and encouraging, however I also desire to be real and transparent. It's not always easy to find that balance. I'll just share what God has been doing in me over the past couple of months.

I shared about my second fall and messing up my knee two posts ago. To make a long story short, I bruised my kneecap which means that it will be a long time before it feel normal again. In the meantime, I've been allowed to go back to running. Praise God!! I am doing my best to take it slowly and not push myself too hard, too fast.

So I'd been back to running for two weeks when my hubby came home feeling like he was coming down with a cold on a Thursday. All that night he ran a temperature and stayed home Friday from work. By Saturday, I was beginning to feel like I was coming down with it too. By Sunday I was running a temperature as well. Went to the doctor on Monday and was told that I had an upper respiratory infection. I wasn't the only one who came down with MyHero's cold. All 3 kids came down with it as well. Even the dog was sneezing! We spent the week of Thanksgiving hunkered down and quarantined from the rest of the world. Praise God that my hubby already had the week off. He had asked for it off months before.

Due to all the sickness and perhaps from just being so inactive, I've been fighting depression again. The enemy tries to tell me that I'm a terrible mom and that I'm failing at homeschooling my kids. Never mind the fact that we've been sick and that I had scheduled this week off from school! I refused to give in to the lies and kept reminding myself of the truth.

This morning is Sunday and I was home sick with sick kids. I listened to our church service live via internet connection. I was so glad that I did! One of the things the speaker discussed was fighting depression and how we can choose to praise and be thankful instead of believing the lies.

Another thing that God has been impressing on my heart is to spend more of my time seeking Him. I want to seek for Him as for hidden treasure. I want to seek for Him as for the thing that is going to save my life. "As the deer pants for the water brooks,
So pants my soul for You, O God." Psalm 42

The way that is walking out for me is by listening to all the recorded sermons from Genesis to Revelation from our church. I must confess that since I've been sick I haven't been very consistent with this. I think the enemy of my soul recognizes that I'm on a path to blessing from the Lord and doesn't want that for me.

Yet another thing the Lord has been laying on my heart is a desire to see unbelievers come to know Him. I want to be used to bring them to Jesus. As a stay at home, homeschool mom I don't get many opportunities for that. However, I do have this blog and I have my Facebook. Therefore, I'm recommissioning this blog to the purpose of sharing what God chooses to teach me through His Word. I pray that this will be used to bring others to Him!